I reflect everyday what I have done in the day and sometimes when things happen and I reacted strongly, I feel pretty bad about my reaction at times. Guiltly, I will apologise for my part which I feel I have done wrongly. However, in the eyes of others, they take it that they have no wrong and even took the opportunity to bully you further. I hate it when I apologise too early.
Weakling. I am. Bullied by people younger than me. In the end, I was wrong and they who have erred, ganged up to boycott and ignored me. It doesn't bother me much, but I just feel wronged. Very wronged. When chipped, they didn't feel that they are in wrong but what I am. Imagine them having the mentality that all the wrong doings are right since the rest of them does it and no one find out about it. They who have told to respect me, continued to defy me in their devilish many little ways. Despite all the scoldings and reminding, I am still nothing in their eyes.
I am not even craving for their attention. I am not even asking them to bootlick me. It just plain respect I am asking for and they could not do it sincerely. I start to wonder if they could not have understand English or really they just could not accept the fact that they have to respect me. It's ME. One who hold junior post in the company, one could be addressed by name instead of mdm, one whose work has no importance and can be dragged.
People... It is just astonishing how fast they learnt to be "pragmatic" ... Should get them to watch于旦's 论语心得before coming in !