My darkest fear ...

I have a confession to make - I am terrified of dogs (mutiply that feelings about 10 times). Yes, go ahead and laugh. For no obvious reasons, as long as it is a dog regardless of the size, I would get very frighten and tense when one is around me. Since young, I would keep a distance from them when I see them walking from far. I was so particular that I would not even walk past a neighbour house if they had a dog at home.

Ya, dog barks are scary too.

Then last Wednesday, as usual I just got off the feeder bus and saw this neighbour with her cute small white terrier at the lift lobby. Of course I am not going to take the same lift as her, thus went to check the mailbox, so that I could take the second lift. The lift came pretty soon and she went up.

I took the next lift alone and felt relived that the dog was out of sight. Little that I know that I was happy too soon. The lift door opened and I almost fainted on the spot.

Me screamed: " ARGHHHHH~~!" (Squeezed myself towards the back of the lift)

Outside was a lady with this dog:

A BOXER (BIG ONE SOMEMORE) !!!

ME: " NO! NO! I am not coming out ! YOU DON"T COME IN, YOU... "

Lady tried to comfort me:"Don't be afraid... He don't bite (me thinking as if...) Just come out from the side. "

Lady to dog: "Sit !"

Me no longer know what I am doing except to leave the place: "No, I am not coming out. I want to go down. Let me go down first and I will press the lift up again!"

*Frantically pressing the close door button.

Lady getting impatient:" No~! I have to wait very long. You come out now!"

*Frantically pressing the open door button.

Dog: Look bored.

Me beg:" No. I want to go down ~~"

*Sweating profusiously. *Frantically pressing the close door button.

Lady command: " You come out from the side fast~! He will not bite you! "

*Frantically pressing the open door button.

Dog moving about like it was going to rush into the lift soon.

Me give up. Eyes fixed hard on the dog and tried to move out by sticking as close to the side as possible.

Fortunately for me, I was out in one piece. Unfortunately for her, lift door closed.

Lady cursed : "SHXX! See! my lift gone down already! "

I have no guts to answer back as am afraid that she might release her dog on me.

I have never run so fast since such a long time ago...

Went home. Told my mum what happened. She laugh out loud and sneered :" I thought you want to keep a dog?"

Me ...

变脸

现在年轻人几时到中国学变脸? 各个好像变脸大师一样, 他今天竟然转换了一幅嘴脸， 不再漏出不耐烦的样子,不再顶嘴, 竟然还笑眯眯的听话! 怎么办到的？权利。 他知道我控制他的“生杀大权”，马上“千依百顺”， 乖乖的听话了。 前几天， 我还得看他脸色， 任他喜欢才能“三求四请”的求他把作品交上呢。

我不记得自己是否让他可以直呼我的名字， 但是发现他只直呼我和另一位职位不高的同事的名字，但对高职位的人竟然毕恭毕敬的尊称他们。今天问他为什么这样分别的时候， 他尴尬的笑着说自己可能忘了， 以后会注意。。。（是吗，这种事你会忘？想吐，这理由太恶心。）

另一个更行，在大人们面前委屈可怜的样子， 在人后酸溜溜的对同伴们强调自己没办法去，可是和同伴们谈天说地的时候，又不见那委屈样。之后到了那里竟然开心的玩乐，完全不见先前委屈求全的样子。不是落难吗？又会那么开心吗？

我对这种虚伪，见高就拜，见底就踩的人完全没有好感， 而且对他们要更加防备！人根本就不应该这样。就算你今天成就再高，才艺再好，你对人不诚恳， 你也不过是小人一个。能有多大的作为，多大成就？唾弃！

有了权利，就有更大的责任感。在管教和教导别人的时候，我从他们身上看到了自己好多的弊病， 突然间也很在意自己是否像他们一样。我对自己某些行为感到非常惭愧和内疚。 我不是不想改进，但有时候是无意的和力不从心的。

不是再为自己找借口，但是我一定要努力。我不要再内疚地过一辈子！

Andy Wahol's work in Singapore !

Been seeing this ad playing on AsiaFood Channel about Andy Wahol. He is the guy who screen painted the off-colour (as if the colour has run or it was not printed properly) Marliyn Moroe, Mao Ze Dong, or better known as the Campbell's soup artist.

Why is he so famous you asked? Well, he re-defined and popularised comtempory art by using social icons such as famous people and common American products such campbells' soup can. (Afraid of getting sued for pasting the picture here).


Good news for those who are keen on his work or wanted to view them ! A local gallery located near Bukit Merah has bought in some of his work. Besides selling art pieces, the gallery also hold talks and visits for art students and the public. There is a talk about Andy Wahol's work this Sunday (first of June). If you are interested, visit their website below for more details.

I feel like visiting the gallery to get some creative ideas though... :)


http://www.collectors.com.sg/

http://www.collectors.com.sg/index2.php?menu=artists&view=2&p=6

荔枝

长安回望绣城堆

山顶千门次第开
一骑红尘妃子笑
无人知是荔枝来

时间过得好快, 不知不觉地我爱的荔枝又当季了! 可惜, 最近天气不好, 不可以大快朵颐. 妈妈平时也不喜欢我吃太多荔枝, 因为荔枝属性温热,吃多很容易喉咙痛.

可是,我就是喜欢荔枝独特的甜味, 尤其来自中国的荔枝, 果肉不但厚实, 味道更加香甜. 试想, 拨开那粉红的外皮, 里面马上透露出有如白玉般晶莹的果肉, 里头的汁液更是独特, 非常的芳香鲜甜. 吃完后, 那淡淡的芳香仍然久久不散, 齿颊留香. 试问, 世上还有那种水果有荔枝的这种高雅气质呢?

准备购买第一篮的中国荔枝！

Opening Soon - Photosophize Cafe

Was watching Asian Food Channel one day with my brother. Suddenly, he asked me:"Why didn't you consider Shatec to further study? (since I am so interested in cooking...)"

Me:"WTH"

But been thinking, isn't life like that? Sometimes you do not neccessary do what you do best/like to do isn't it? I like to sing, but I am not a singer etc...

Here are some of my creations which I have cooked over weeks (not in one sitting), but didn't managed to post them. They are inspired by Gordon Ramsley and Jamie Oliver. Am thinking that Chef Ramsley would probably will scold me to death to serve these kind of food. Hee Hee.

Warm Italian Salad - Grilled Eggplant, Zuccini with Salad Leaves and Cherry Tomato dressed with Balsamic Olive Oil Vinegrette. Topped with Gouda Cheese. (will improve on the presentation)

Scallop seared in high heat with lettuce leaves dressed with Balsamic Olive Oil Vingrette

Angel Hair in Cream Sauce with Aparagus, Bacon and Oyster (Need to be perfected still... Taste weird)


Grilled Salmon on a Bed of Salad Leaves.

So what do you all think? Can I opened a cafe already? I think I took good pictures, but taste needs to be improve further.

为了筹款。。。

王菲唱了！Not for Live Nation, but for a good cause. I applause for her!!!

除了要鼓励其他人出钱捐款，她与先生李亚鹏也捐了一百万人民币。当晚筹款筹得一亿元。

台湾也举办了一场筹款晚会。费玉清小哥自己也捐了五十万人民币。有位善心人士也出了一百万美金点他唱一曲 - 爱心。

好久没出现的小燕姐也出来了，平常王不见王的主持大哥们，当红歌手们都为了赈灾放下了避忌， 同台演出。

新加坡在这一个礼拜天也有筹款活动。大家都出一些力，帮忙四川受难的灾民吧！

R.E.S.P.E.C.T

I reflect everyday what I have done in the day and sometimes when things happen and I reacted strongly, I feel pretty bad about my reaction at times. Guiltly, I will apologise for my part which I feel I have done wrongly. However, in the eyes of others, they take it that they have no wrong and even took the opportunity to bully you further. I hate it when I apologise too early.

Weakling. I am. Bullied by people younger than me. In the end, I was wrong and they who have erred, ganged up to boycott and ignored me. It doesn't bother me much, but I just feel wronged. Very wronged. When chipped, they didn't feel that they are in wrong but what I am. Imagine them having the mentality that all the wrong doings are right since the rest of them does it and no one find out about it. They who have told to respect me, continued to defy me in their devilish many little ways. Despite all the scoldings and reminding, I am still nothing in their eyes.

I am not even craving for their attention. I am not even asking them to bootlick me. It just plain respect I am asking for and they could not do it sincerely. I start to wonder if they could not have understand English or really they just could not accept the fact that they have to respect me. It's ME. One who hold junior post in the company, one could be addressed by name instead of mdm, one whose work has no importance and can be dragged.

People... It is just astonishing how fast they learnt to be "pragmatic" ... Should get them to watch于旦's 论语心得before coming in !

Count Our Blessings

I remembered complaining about life last week (as usual) on how it was unfair, especially why good things only falls on someone else and not ourselves, on why bad people seems to be doing better and better... (Really, I couldn't understand. Somebody tell me why? )

Suddenly, a freak typhoon destoryed everything in its path in Myammar, including thousands of lives . An unexpected earthquake crumpled towns and villages in Sichuan, burying thousands and thousands people along with it. Horrific scenes flooded the news in recent weeks and there are a lot of people are suffering in countries around us.

Nearer to home, I heard several sad tales from my friend about her neighbours yesterday...

• Neighbour 1 could not afford proper food except white bread. She had told my friend's mum that she was sick of the plain white bread, thus bought a packet of salt so that she could flavour the bread with it. That neighbour was in such a pathetic mode that she would soon could not afford to buy bread even.
• Neighbour 2 was even poorer. He couldn't even afford bread and have to resort to taking fruits meants for prayers to eat.
• Neighbour 3 had stroke and had mobility problem. He would beg people who pass-by his flat for some packets of coffee powders and food.

I was quite sad when I heard those tales. Actually those 3 people are the typical poor old folks in Singapore and I am sure there are bound to be a lot more of such tales in other parts of Singapore too. Some live by from the monthly state welfare monies. Some of the lucky ones have children who does give them monthly allowences. However, their children didn't earn much as they were not educated, thus could not give them more allowences. The plight was made worse by the recent inflation of food prices... Pathetic isn't it?

Compared to the people above, we are very lucky. I feel that sometimes our "suffereing" seems petty and a lot of times self-inflicted. Like people above couldn't even afford proper food every day and yet there were some others who complaint about the wrong things on raising food costs, like how they could not afford branded bread, Haagen Das Ice Cream, Imported Biscults etc anymore. Those people have forgotten that those are wants and not needs.

We are lucky that we have a flat to live in at the very least, we still have a job and can buy whatever we want on a whim (I still fall short of that.), we still can afford to chose where to eat lunch, and for some, they troubled over whether it is more worth it to buy a Gucci or LV bag...

Before we complaint about life, stop and count our blessings, my friends. We already have a lot than most people...