Adele - Someone like you (Live in her home)

Woh, I wish I could sing live like Adele does. Freaking good voice.

She represents hope to plus size people out there. Please also note our talent, not just our size. Big girls can be beautiful too. I hope fashion houses will do more plus size clothing because of her fame. 

I brought myself a AT2020 last year and I want to start record my singing vocal. I like to think that I have a pretty good voice.

Maybe I will be famous one day and I will record this song.

Yeah! Speechless no more!

Happy days! Finally, speechless no more.

Such a feeling coming over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream

There's a pleasing sense of happiness for me.

Speechless

Speechless seems to be the preferred mode of communication for many.

I, for one, cannot comprehend what people meant by speechless. Is it a Yes or No? Is the person angry? Is the person disappointed? What does the person want?

Tell me. Confront me. Be frank. Score me even. I can take it all.

Ok, maybe it is more polite than than shouting at one in email/in person.

And I admit I also like to be speechless when I cannot bring myself to shout at people.

Come on, no one likes losing. I don’t have to be reminded that I lost. Once, twice but many times? What is the intention then, I can’t help wondering when it is done on purpose for that many times. Why would you want to bring up something that you know it is hurtful to another person? I don’t wish to hear anything about it. It is the most regrettable thing in my life.

Maybe the person should back down and be nice. Stop being so nasty and scheming. There is karma and it will hit you where it is hardest. 

Of course Karma comes after everyone including me. I am also reflecting on many matters that happened recently. Useless me disappointed a nice person thoroughly. I was reprimanded by my conscience every day. I blew up my only chance to achieve something great in my life. I have to live in regret forever.

Unless the person decides to give me a chance, but I doubt so… I don’t deserve it. Then some other person also becomes speechless suddenly. Well, well what have I done? Maybe I should refrain from communicating with anyone for now. 

Let’s all be speechless.

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I'll never talk again,
oh boy, you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

I'll never write a song, won't even sing along

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless? Oh, oh

The almost ended glamourous era - Goodbye Feng Fei Fei

I had a shock yesterday to read that Taiwan's evergreen superstar - Feng Fei Fei died of lungs cancer. What is even more shocking was how she had died exactly one month ago, but news of her death had only surfaced now in this media savvy time and age.

Feng had left final words with her lawyer to keep news of her death under wrap until the Chinese New Year has passed. It was reported that she doesn't want her fans to be sad during the festive season...

I find this act very considerate, touching and admirable. Sometimes public figures like singers and actors kept lamenting that they are humans too and how they weren't getting enough privacy that they forgot that they have a responsibility to be answerable to their fans.

Feng Fei Fei understands her position and has handled the matter in the best interest of her fans... Maybe that is why she has many ardent fans and followers who are willing to wait twenty years for her return from hiatus.

There is something about stars from the past decades.

I mean look at her performance. It represents the glorious and glamourous age of stars and stardom. People like Feng Fei Fei, Teresa Teng, Leslie Cheung and Anita Mui are not merely singers, but charismatic performers. They are stars. Their mere presence already heightens the performance before they even start singing.

And then take a hard look at the current Asia pop arena,  how many of the singers can really sing, not even talking about singing live even and perform like they do? There are some, but one can probably count them with one hand.

Not sure what is missing, but there aren't any stars from the younger batch of singers. If this is considered as the end of an era, then the last star still shining in current pop arena is probably Zhang Hui Mei.

Maybe there is some truth in this saying after all - Star are born and not made.

Feng Jie, thank you all the many classics and may you rest in peace.

凤飞飞 - 相思爬上心底

Web of complications

It is officially a web of complications. I don’t think any spider can get out of the tangle which I have written. I doubt anyone will understand what I am trying to argue. 

Not even my lecturer, Mr Trelawney.

I am dead… Argghhh.

I did it again…

I admit I have been an inconsiderate, lazy spoilt brat who have caused a lot of inconveniences.

For all the mess I have created, I should bury myself six feet under and rot.

Why can’t I just follow the norm and do what was required, instead of being so ambitious? Never trouble trouble till trouble troubles you. I just couldn’t live with an easier life, don’t I?

Why can’t I just stick to the rules and try not break any of it?

Then in the irony of all these mess, I have also unwillingly build up an anticipation so huge that I may not be able to fulfill it.

I should have learnt the lesson already... I feel very sorry and I really didn’t meant it. 

On a separate note, I am quite upset that people are not taking me seriously.

I am indeed a diploma grad and I took a degree course from private school. God and perhaps my lecturers, will know how hard I have worked for the degree course but the stigma reminds.

People don’t believe in the standard of a private school. Indeed, it perhaps cannot compare with the local trinity, but does it meant that all that I have studied and worked so hard for are just a mirage. I will not make any sense at all in my points.

I wonder why I worked so hard for then all these years… Have all the lecturers been lying to us then?

Disappointed with self…

The lesson of fairness and equality

For those who still want to argue about fairness and equality, get this very clear - nothing is fair and some people are indeed more equal than others.

Last lag of the graduation race and I realised that there is an award for the best performing student of the cohort. I guess I am out of the race. Surely, there is someone who has scored more As than me. One of my groupmates might be. Her results are neck in neck with me. And I think I might have lost to her because of the liabilities of a few more Cs, thanks to Mr Spoonfeeder, the crazy woman and Ms Heels.

I feel very strongly that they haven’t been very fair to me. They have marked me down unfairly.

If it is not us, there are also few others who are quite hardworking as well. Maybe they had a smoother sailing academic life than us, who knows.

Ok, I have never set out to top the class and I probably can’t. But to see that I could have a close shot at it and miss it, that is just disappointing.

Anyway, I better go and finish my final assignment. I had again chosen a difficult route for myself… Long story in short, it has to do with reading tea leaves again.

Wish me luck!